More than enough.

Kay, I know my previous posts was rather emo or like something happened.
Thing happened yesterday. Yes, on Julian's birthday and supposed to be a happy occasion yet turn out like this. 5years of girlfriends, the group i cherished the most ended yesterday. You're the one who destroyed everything completely okay, why did you change so much Eugena Phang? Not longer the one i know anymore, you know how disappointed we're yesterday when we know truth. You fling with guys or do whatever shit i can dont be bother but to girlfriends sorry is too much. If i can i'll just slap you right now, i wont give a fucking damn for the consequences know why, at least maybe a slap will wake you up. Maybe you think you've no fault at all, but seriously did you think of us when you said that yesterday even those harsh words to Julian. I know you'll do what you think is right, but hello to me you're more than a bitch. I wont feel great saying you're a bitch but do you ever spare a thought for others first not? 5years you know how much we've been through not? And you gave up so easily w/o trying to retrieve back this friendship. Then what more can i say ? Since you dont even give a fucking damn. Your actions, your attitude forced me to say out all this. Love it or not, is your problem. I wont even bother to say sorry to you if i say anything wrong, because i think you wont even bother right.
And Chanchinkiat who i really regarded as good friend. End up, another bastard. Eh i dont know what's wrong with you also. Changed, gave up this friendship because of her worth it or not. You better go think yourself! Where is the Chanchinkiat i know? What you did to Julian yesterday is too much also, you know i more afraid to lose you this good friend than gi okay. Because i know when i feeling down, at least this joker will joke me up when i need too. This friendship ended in one night also. And dont blame Yukang, he was not the one who said everything out. Im the one who said everything out because you two really making me damn fuck up seriously. You dont like it ? Come find me then but i wont say sorry to you. Never, if you dare to do why cant let people know right. So dont blame anyone else. In fact, do you think i feel good to say all this out?

Oh so much better man, saying this all out. I've alot to say but im lazy. Not worth it.
Cried the whole day today. I never felt so disappointed before but thanks to this two yes. Kept too many stuffs inside, and finally exploded today. Cried not because i lost the two of them get this clear, they dont have such big impact to me. Cried today because Mum, sick of living, studies and rubbish stuffs. i cried again when someone trying to cheer me up. I dont know why, when i saw what you typed in msn. I cried. Okay dont ask me why i dont know also. Shall remain everything the same k. I thought i'll be fine when im outside with them. Yet i cried again the first time, i bet they must be shock because i seldom cried infront of them. Sighs. Somehow i dont know i cry for what, but at least explode out. I've no energy to cry k.
Those who cheer me up, thanks peeps! Muchluv ^^ Will be fine.
What a long post, okay promise when Mel send me those photos then i shall post those happy suffs, bye (:
Reply tags soon too haha.